Daycare Days
Daycare Time...
Kenzie has been back at daycare for a few weeks now, but yesterday, Emerson joined her!
I go back to work next week (from home) but wanted to get Emerson started before so we could adjust and handle anything that we needed to, those first few days.
I am excited, nervous, grateful, sad, everything.
Especially during this time of Covid-19, the anxiety about sending kids to daycare at all is sky high. Let alone an infant, and a heart warrior.
But, we have to work, and doing so proved almost impossible with just Kenzie when this first started, let alone with both kids.
So, to daycare they go.
Daycare Days are awesome
I trust our daycare is doing all it can to keep them safe. I trust our daycare cares for them as much and as best they can.
When Kenzie went back, she was soooo excited. Even now weeks later, she gets dressed in the morning singing and telling me all about what she will get to do at school. She happily says bye to me in the morning, practically racing for the stairs to leave.
When she comes home, she tells me all about her friends, teachers, and what they did.
That is priceless.
She loves going there and that makes sending both kids, so much easier.
The mom guilt will always be there.
Should I be sending them? Do I see them enough? Am I being a good co-worker and a good parent?
Along with a million other doubts.
But I know, I am trying to do what is best for my family in a crazy time.
I do best when working, Kenzie does best when interacting with other kids, Emerson will learn social skills and other things he can't, just being home with me. I want and need to be able to focus on my job during the day to ever grow the career I want and hope to make my kids proud of.
To each their own. Some people want to be a stay at home parent and are awesome at it, others want to work, some have to work but wish to stay home.
The job is to do your best to care for your kid, however that is.
I know I am doing my best when my little girl runs to school like it is the best place ever, and I am excited at the end of the day to see her, while being able to feel accomplished in my own way.
But man, I miss them, and really hope Emerson is going to love it as much as a 3mo old can, and eventually as much as his big sister does.
Did I mention how excited Kenzie was this morning to 'show everyone Emerson!' such a proud big sister.
Love those damn kids.