I don’t give a crap about your crap

Let me start by saying, generally, I do give a crap.

But, after Spencer died, I started to not give a crap about all the petty random bullshit people expected me to care about. I stopped being so damn polite about it all.

Ex: A friend invites me to a 'selling random crap party' I politely decline.

However, when an acquaintance recently reached out telling me I had a tough year, and needed a night out, only to then invite me to a 'night out' at her house involving her MLM bullshit that I should join her on, because it has helped her so much, and she wanted to help me. Well. I was NOT polite about that one.

Yes- I had a tough year. Sure, I could use a night out. But you know what 'Karen?!' that night does not involve you, or your shit and you should feel like shit for thinking MLM was the solution to my 'tough' year.

Do not EVER try to use my life or my son as a reason to attempt to drag me into your crap.

Or another former work friend 'Brenda' invited me to a girls brunch. Cool. I found out from another friend who was invited, that I was invited because 'Brendas' grandma had recently died and she thought she could connect with me, and we could be there for each other.

I'm sorry- your 97yo grandma dying is comparative to my 6 week old son?!? Yeah. Hard Pass. I would need bottomless mimosas for that one, and I would probably be a bigger bi**h after drinking with you than I was when I told you to count me as a no.

Now, I have had friends actually invite me to brunch, or a night out. I have gladly accepted. I have had people who have actually been through similar things, reach out to connect about things that have helped them. In those instances, I am happy to listen, even if it isn't for me.

But I am done thanking 'Brenda' for the invite and declining. No. I do not thank you for your invite. My year has been hell, and if you think inviting me to you 'skincare tchotchke' party for the 16th time, is cool. Well, I will happily shove that shit right back in your face and tell you I DO NOT GIVE A CRAP.

Mostly because you are trying to sell me on literal crap.

I get that it is hard to know how to help, or be there for someone in my situation but just say Hi. Don't try to force a connection, because I really hope you don't have any idea how this feels and I truly hope you are unable to find a connection to all of this.

Now, you want to send me on an all inclusive beach resort vacation just for my email address and a smile-lets talk.

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